December 31, 2009

First diet day here , 1825th in real life.

Personnally, I'm really good at not eating all day , then , going home and binging like CRAZYYY then staying in the bathroom for 1h trying to puke ,then ,realizing i'm not gonna puke because for some reasons my body is stupid , then , eating a half-box of laxatif and crying in my bed for my lack of will-power.....

BUT.....

I started this cookie diet, (aka as smart for life).
I'm suppose to eat 1 cookie every 2hour and then a meal for dinner. (Chicken and veggy)
Everycookie have 105 calories of protein and 4% of fat.
Basically your always stuff because of the protein so you don't have to think about cheating/binge.

Okay now , the thing is , those cookie are 1) disgusting 2) expensive 3) too rich for me.
So i'm eat 2 or 3 during the day (instead of 6 like i'm suppose too) and then I go home and very often I binge.....

Today
3 diet cookies ( 315 cal)
Going for dinner later with my bf.... we'll see.


First Post - Presentation


I've been wanting to have a blog since a long time now, always thought it was a brillant idea to keep motivation and focus on your objectif, so here I am.

I don't consider myself as a pro-ana or even somebody with ED. I just have a HUGE obsession with beauty. I mean , a non-healthy and really disturbing obsession about thin and amazing model/actress/socialite/celebtrity.

I don't purge and deprive myself of food. But I do use pro-ana blog as motivation , I do put myself into very strict diet, count my calorie and I do weight myself 25 times a day.

On top of that, I take extremely care of my hair , my skin , my nails to look my best , always.

So this blog will mainly be about the food but also about nice cosmetic tresure and other practical advise to always be your best.

Take Care

Kyle
xoox